Life Update & Watercolor
It’s time for a life update and some watercolor. These are sort of like therapy sessions with my imaginary therapist.
All At Once
I can’t explain the relief I feel on New Year’s Day morning. Does anyone else out there in internet land understand? The newness. The hope. Anticipation. But also, the looking back. We humans always hope for less hard. We look for the good and easy. Don’t we? It’s weird. We hope for the simple, uncomplicated, zero struggle-but every single time, we find that the good is always mixed in with the hard.
“That was a hard day.” And I remember the tears I cried.
“But it was so good.” And I remember the laughter later on.
It’s all mingled together. In all my seriousness- because I am super serious most of the time-I look at all the good and hard mixed together and I get a little muddled. Sad happy…a hope for grace, an acknowledgement that it wasn’t all bad. And my gut twists, my brow crinkles, and my throat closes a little because I’m overwhelmed.
Life is good. God is good.
Life is hard, unfair, ugly and… And God is still good.
It’s both. All at once.
